Prior to Tom Grants Involvement

March 3, 1994

Courtney Love and her husband, Kurt Cobain, had not been getting along. They’d been talking about divorce. Kurt did not want to tour or perform anymore. He was walking away from what Courtney said was a $9.5 million dollar contract to headline the Lollapalooza tour.

Kurt had called their lawyer asking to change his will and get divorce

Courtney was angry at Kurt for the possible loss of all those millions. Her anger wasn’t working, so she tried to blame Kurt’s attitude on his drug use and put together a so-called “tough love intervention.” Among others at the “intervention” were some of the junkies Kurt did drugs with!

Courtney Love flew in from London to join Kurt in Rome, putting their daughter Frances Bean Cobain (then only 1½) and the child’s nanny in the suite next door. That evening, Kurt and Courtney ordered a small dinner from room service and settled in for the night. Bothered by chronic throat pain and flu symptoms that had forced him to cancel two shows in Germany the previous week, Cobain took a combination of the prescription drug Rohypnol, a Valium-like tranquilizer available in Europe, and chlorylhydrate, a prescription anesthetic. Then, though he rarely drinks, he shared some champagne with Love, whom he hadn’t seen in a month.

Kurt had slipped into a pharmacological coma due to a combined effect of alcohol (champagne) and the tranquilizers (Rohypnol) which had been prescribed by a doctor for Love, his coma was not due to narcotics. Gold Mountain (Nirvana’s managment) then issued a statement that Kurt had suffered an accidental overdose.

March 4

Kurt OD’s in Rome – Call for ambulance made around 6am

By the time Love awoke the next morning at about 5:30, Cobain was lying on the floor near the bed in a coma. Between 6:00-6:30 A.M., The Excelsior front desk employees receive a frantic call from Love summoning an ambulance for an unconscious Kurt.

Cobain was rushed to the Umberto I Polyclinic Hospital and had his stomach pumped.

Kurt was then transferred to Rome American Hospital, where he regained consciousness later that afternoon.

Late on the night of March 4 and early the next morning, Cobain drifted in and out of consciousness. That afternoon, he came out of the coma for good. Though wire services reported that Cobain’s first request was a strawberry milkshake, it was actually him asking the doctors to “get these fucking tubes out of my nose.”

March 8, 1994 Kurt released from hospital.

March 12, 1994 Kurt flew home to Seattle

March 18, 1994. Domestic incident

Courtney calls police: says Kurt is waving a gun, locked in bathroom, suicidal

Kurt: was trying to protect himself from Courtney, has guns confiscated

March 23, 1994. Krist Novoselic

Attempted one on one, offered nice dinner, Kurt wanted Jack in the Box burger but wanted it from Capitol Hill instead of closest one. Possibly to meet Caitlyn Moore

March 25, 1994. Intervention

Courtney claimed she told Kurt, “This has got to end. You have to be a good daddy!” This statement is somewhat pretentious, since it came from a woman who was doing drugs when I was first hired and continued her drug use during the eight months I worked for her. It’s hard to believe Kurt could have taken this whole “intervention” scene seriously.

Patty Schemel, Hole’s drummer, refused to go – thought it would be hypercritical

By the meeting’s end, people thought Cobain had softened and had been persuaded to seek drug treatment. He agreed to leave for a detox program in Los Angeles that day.

Also that day, Love took a chartered jet from Boeing Field to San Francisco and then flew to Los Angeles the following day. She checked into the plush Peninsula Hotel in Beverly Hills to undergo drug treatment in an outpatient setting, under the twice-a-day care of a psychiatrist in her $500-a-day suite.

Courtney in San Fran: Possibly to ask Roddy to talk to Kurt about drug use

Same day to San Fran and L.A (spyfox)

March 26, 1994. Courtney to LA

Courtney left Seattle for the Peninsula Hotel in Beverly Hills (Tom Grant) via San Fran (seattle times)

Janet Bilig, Holes Manager (present at intervention) and Courtney fly to San Fran then L.A:

Cobain, though, never made it to Los Angeles that day. Although friends (krist?) took him to the airport, he changed his mind and went back to Seattle, according to a Capitol Hill friend who is also a heroin dealer. The dealer (caitlyn moore?), who did not want to be identified, said Cobain visited her apartment that evening . (seattle times)

She said Cobain said to her: “Where are my friends when I need them? Why are my friends against me?” The woman recalled, “He just felt like, `What’s wrong here, you know? Why am I the wrong one?’ “

Sometime around March 27 to 29th

Kurt with Roddy Bottum in Seattle – keys FNM (San Fran)

March 30. Gun Purchased

Roddy is back in SanFran (spyfox)

But before he left, he visited Carlson in Seattle’s Lake City neighborhood. (seattle times)

Kurt and his best friend Dylan Carlson purchased a shotgun. Kurt told Dylan he was afraid of intruders at the house. Walking out on the Lollapalooza tour was a business decision that would cost others a great deal of money also. I have reason to believe Kurt may have been intimidated into believing his life would be in danger if he failed to do the tour.

Carlson said Cobain gave him the money to buy a Remington Model 11 20-gauge shotgun at Stan’s Gun Shop. The salesman remembers Carlson and knew he was with someone else, but the other person hung back and wasn’t identifiable. Why Cobain didn’t buy the shotgun himself isn’t known. There’s no registration or waiting period for shotguns. Cobain was no stranger to guns. Three guns were taken from his home by police after a June 1993 domestic disturbance, and four guns were taken after the March 18 call. (seattle times)

The shotgun was a 20 gauge, set-up for light load. This set-up is what gun dealers often recommend for home protection because the shot won’t penetrate walls and endanger those on the other side. Kurt took the shotgun to his house so it would be there when he got back from rehab.

Cobain apparently brought the shotgun home, put it in a closet and caught a flight to Los Angeles, where he checked into the Exodus Recovery Center. (seattle times)

March 31. Rehab

Fri April 1. Kurt leaves rehab

Thirteen phone calls were made to Kurt’s rehab center from Courtney’s hotel room at the Peninsula. Most of these are to the patient’s pay phone. Courtney later told me she only talked to Kurt once that day (Tom Grant)

Courtney rang their joint credit card company and discovered Kurt had booked a plane ticket about 30mins after Kurt had left rehab (love & death)

At 5.30pm Kurt booked two other tickets with United Airlines? (love & death) on a Seafirst Mastercard according to Tom Grant, possibly to record with REM says Courtney.

Kurt’s $478 flight to Seattle was approved in the credit card statement. The two $150 flights were not and are logged after Kurt’s flight. Someone may have tried to book a second flight twice because it was rejected the first time. Both times, no luck. These attempts were made about 35 mins after Kurt’s flight was booked according to the statement, although it was recorded on the log at 4am the following day.

Courtney has obviously canceled the card after Kurt booked his flight home.

Why do the charges say Delta?? Credit card statement says Delta, not United!!

Note the cash advances (card present – Seattle) declined $300, $300, $100 then $50 – all declined /not sufficient funds – Kurt was in LA in rehab and card was present so must have been Cali. Cali may have had Kurt’s card or there was another card printed for him.

“In Love And Death: The Murder Of Kurt Cobain”, published April 3 by Atria Books, investigative journalists Max Wallace and Ian Halperin reveal that only an hour before Cobain went missing from an LA drug rehab facility in April, 1994, he had called United Airlines to book the tickets, which were still unused when Cobain was found dead in a room above his garage a week later.

That evening, Kurt left the rehab. Later, at 8:47 PM, he called the Peninsula Hotel and left a message for Courtney. The message on the hotel log reads: “Elizabeth’s phone # is (213)_______.” (This # is in my case file.) Courtney never mentioned this message to the media. It doesn’t appear to be a message from a person who is “suicidal.” (Tom Grant)

Peninsula Hotel message for Courtney “Husband called. Elizabeth number is (213) 850-????” (love & death)

Area codes 213 and 323 are California telephone area codes in the North American Numbering Plan. They contain, roughly, the area of central Los Angeles. The territory of 213 and 323 also includes several gateway cities of the region, including Bell and Huntington Park. Exodus Recovery is on the edge of 213 between Inglewood and Huntington park.

Did Kurt tell Courtney he was planning to meet with Elizabeth to have a potrait painted of him as a coverup? Did he really meet Elizabeth Peyton? Unlikely. Most of her images are of photos but some may not be. Perhaps he planned to meet her one day but it wasn’t a priority at the time.

Elizabeth Peyton (based in NY) is a contemporary American painter best known for her intimate, small-scale portraits of celebrities, friends, and historical figures. Characterized by transparent washes of pigment and a jewel-tone palette, Peyton’s works address notions of idolatry and obsession.

Did Courtney cancel the card so that Kurt couldn’t be traced or did she just want him to stay in Seattle? She was irate when she found out about the plane tickets probably as she thought he might be sleeping with someone else.

Did Cali try to book Jessica a flight? She didn’t fly out until 6th though

Kurt leaves Exodus (7.25pm AmericanSpyFox) and an hour later books 10.30pm flight 788F seat 2F to Seattle with Delta Airlines and ride with Seattle Limousines at 1am. Travel: 9pm to 1.30 am including car rides. Driver: Linda Walker. Seattle Airport to home.

Sat April 2nd

12.30am Kurt arrived in Seattle, and was taken to his house on Lake Washington by a hired driver.

6am: Cali and his girlfriend see Kurt in their bedroom. Kurt sings ‘Hey skinhead girl’ to Jessica. Jessica asked him to call Courtney because ‘she was freaking out’. They made a call but Courtney wasn’t taking any calls.

Kurt called Graytop cabs and went to 145th & Aurora Strip (american spyfox). 8.30am Crest Motel Trailer Park?

7am: Kurt called Graytop Cab. He told the driver that he had “recently been burgled and needed bullets.” They drove downtown, but seeing as it was 7:30 a.m. on a Saturday morning, sporting goods stores were closed. Kurt asked the driver to take him to 145th & Aurora, saying he was hungry. Most likely Kurt checked into either the Crest or Quest Motel, places he had stayed before—they were near one of his dealers. That day he also went to Seattle Guns and bought a box of twenty-gauge shotgun shells.

The receipt was found in Kurt’s pocket at time of death. Seattle Guns was located 5 mins drive from 145th & Aurora, on 145th & Lake City Way

Dylan Carlson said he received a call from DeWitt saying Cobain had shown up at the house and that he “looked bad; was acting weird.”

“I told the nanny to confiscate the gun if he knew where it was,” Carlson said. “By that time, I was sufficiently alarmed.”

And for good reason. Graytop Taxi supervisor Paul Szaly says Cobain was driven to a gun shop that morning to buy shotgun shells. A receipt for the ammunition was later found at Cobain’s house.

As part of his review of the evidence, inside the bag of shotgun shells SPD found at Cobain’s side 20-years ago, Det. Ciesynski writes, “I recovered a sales receipt for $6.95, which was dated 4-2-94. On the box of 20 gauge ammunition is a price sticker for $6.95 from ‘Seattle Guns.'”

This sales receipt had not been previously disclosed by the SPD. For the first time, Det. Ciesynski claims to have connected this date of April 2, 1994 on the receipt, first to the store Seattle Guns, and then to what he identifies as another significant piece of information from the original detectives’ follow-up report.

In that report “it was noted that a Gray Top Taxi picked up a male from the Cobain residence on the morning of 4-2-94. This male advised the cab driver that he wanted to find a place to buy some bullets since he had recently been burglarized. The cab driver dropped this person off in the area of 145th and Aurora.”

Ciesynski’s new report explains that Seattle Guns was located just south of 145th and Aurora.

Conspiracy theorists like Grant insist that a conspirator fired the weapon that killed Cobain, questioning his ability to do so after taking such a large dose of heroin, and questioning Cobain’s will to commit suicide.

Det. Ciesynski’s determination that Cobain purchased the shotgun shells within one or two days of his death appears to suggest a person planning a suicide, more than it might the coincidence of Cobain buying the shells that a conspirator ultimately used to kill him in a planned, staged suicide.

The SPD always believed it was Cobain who took the taxi cab on April 2, 1994, and that he killed himself with the shotgun either later that day or the following day, unable to pinpoint a time of death because the body was discovered days later.

For the first time only weeks ago, SPD released a photo of those shotgun shells inside a paper bag next to Cobain’s foot and his purple Converse All Star sneaker. According to the report the receipt for $6.95 dated April 2, 1994, was also inside that paper bag.

A close look at the photo reveals the sticker mentioned in the report on top of the box of shotgun shells on which is printed “Seattle Guns” and the price of the shells, “$6.95.”

Did Dylan live in Lake City? Stan’s Gun shop was in Lake City and Seattle Guns was just north from there

Courtney makes 8 calls to Cali at the Seattle house that day

Where was Kristen Pfaff this week?

Kristen moved back to Minneapolis in Feb. It was there she recieved the news about Kurt and was devastated.

Pfaff entered a Minneapolis detox center for heroin addiction in February 1994[6] and left Hole later that spring, to tour with Janitor Joe. (May)

Could she have seen Kurt in April? Unlikely

Tour 11 May to 13 June

Dying from a heroin overdose on June 16, 1994. (Just prior to her death, Pfaff temporarily rejoined Janitor Joe for a European tour).

Eric Erlandson probably supplied her the heroin the night she died as he visited the apartment that night. Eric played guitar in Hole.

Back at the Cobain house, the main phone rang every ten minutes but Cali was afraid to answer it, thinking it was Courtney. When he finally answered, he told her he hadn’t seen Kurt. Still fried from drugs, Cali thought Kurt’s bedside visit was simply a dream. Cali and Jessica were fighting about his drug use, and in a fit of rage he suggested she take an early flight home. He tried to use the $100,000-limit Mastercard Kurt had given him to buy her an airline ticket but the charge was denied. He called Courtney to complain and she told him she’d canceled Kurt’s cards, thinking this would help determine his whereabouts. Feeling ill, Jessica went to bed and spent much of the next two days sleeping and trying to ignore the house phone, which rang endlessly.

Sunday, April 3rd. Courtney hires Tom Grant and cancels credit card

Easter Sunday at the Peninsula Hotel


Courtney called my office in Beverly Hills. She told me someone was using her husband’s credit card and she wanted me to try to find out who it was.

I took another investigator with me named Ben Klugman. We met Courtney at the Peninsula Hotel in Beverly Hills. “If you leak this to the press, I’ll sue the f___ out of you,” Courtney warned me as we walked into the room.

Courtney told us her husband was Kurt Cobain and that he just left a drug rehab. She said she lied to the credit card company and had his card canceled. She wanted us to call the credit card company and find out what the attempted activities were on this canceled card. I mentioned I couldn’t understand why she needed us for that. I advised her she could do that herself and save some money. If we did it, I’d have to charge her fifty dollars just to make a phone call.

“What? That’s not enough money for you?” Courtney responded sarcastically.

Courtney told us Kurt only had one credit card and without that one card he had no access to money. She said Kurt didn’t have any friends or anyone else that might loan him money. Knowing now who we were dealing with, this didn’t make sense!

We questioned Courtney more about Kurt’s ability to get money for his needs. “This guy can’t even catch a f___ing cab by himself!” she insisted.

Courtney told us about a story she had planted with the Associated Press the previous evening. The story alleged that Courtney had overdosed and was in the hospital. She claimed the reason she did this was to scare Kurt and get his attention so he’d try to contact her.

Later that afternoon while I was with her in the hotel room, Courtney rambled on in an angry rage about the “9 1/2 million dollars” Kurt was walking away from.

She said, “If he doesn’t want the money, he ought to do it for his child, for Frances.”

She said she’d do the Lollapalooza tour for Kurt if he didn’t want to do it…

She said she’d do Saturday Night Live if he didn’t want to do it…

She said she thought Kurt wanted a divorce…

She mentioned a prenuptial agreement, but said, “My name’s on all the houses and assets.”

Courtney said she didn’t know for sure where Kurt was. She said he might be in Seattle, or he may have flown back east to stay with Michael Stipe. She failed to mention initially that Kurt had been seen at their Lake Washington house on Saturday morning, April 2nd, by “Cali,” (Michael Dewitt), the male nanny who was living at the Cobain residence. Cali later claimed he informed Courtney on Saturday, April 2nd, that Kurt had been to the house earlier that morning. Cali said Kurt came into his bedroom and they had a short conversation.

Courtney asked me to find someone in Seattle to watch a drug dealer’s apartment and other locations in case Kurt turned up, but she didn’t ask us to watch the Lake Washington house, the one place we later learned Kurt had actually been seen!

I sub-contracted with a P.I. firm in Seattle for the surveillance.

Charles Peterson saw Kurt in downtown Seattle and thought him ‘gone’. (Sandford p 326.) But is this really what Peterson thought? Here are Peterson’s own words remembering Kurt, after his death:

Teen Spirit – The Tribute To Kurt Cobain

“What sticks in my mind is actually running into him on the street about two weeks before he, before he killed himself. And it was just, you know, I guess in relation to events, I’m glad that I did. I’m glad that I saw him. We talked and he, we exchanged phone numbers and he was really happy about the book, my book of photographs that I’m doing. He was like, ‘Alright, at last, get the real thing.’ And he was, we chatted and he was concerned about my wife’s illness and just really, you know….that sticks in my mind.”

Christopher Sandford reported that a woman called Sara Hoehn saw Kurt on this day.

On April 3rd Cobain met a woman named Sara Hoehn on Broadway (runs from downtown/first hill, north up through capitol hill).  He was in a foul temper about a report that 40,000 fans had lined the street that morning to buy tickets for an Eagles concert in L.A.  ‘We might as well not have happened,’ is Hoehn’s memory of his words. (Sandford p 326.)

Would a man purported to be in such a mentally fragile state be concerned about how many tickets were sold for an Eagles concert?  Wouldn’t he have been more likely to have railed about his own problems?  Note, alongside a sighting of Kurt by John Silva on this day, these are the last sightings of Kurt alive by people who knew him.

John Silva told MTV that he saw Kurt on this day (Seattle Times, April 8 1994 edition). Christopher Sandford’s book reports that a woman called Sara Hoehn saw Kurt on this day. They apparently spoke about the 40,000 Eagles fans who had lined the street that morning to buy tickets for an Eagles concert in LA. ‘We might as well not have happened’, is Hoehn’s memory of his words. (25, pg.326.)

A neighbor also saw Kurt sitting at the local lakeside park.

Outside a takeaway round the corner from dealer in Capitol Hill at Jack in the Box?

Kurt met friends somewhere, probably Caitlyn Moore’s apartment in Capitol Hill

He would have scored and got high. Perhaps taking his dealer and friend out for dinner as payment.

Restaurant Dinner

Bret Chatalas, owner of Cactus, clearly remembers Kurt Cobain showing up at his Madison Park location with some friends on the night of Sunday, April 3rd.They were planning to go see a movie, The Piano.

Monday, April 4th. Missing person’s report

7am: Courtney files missing persons report under Wendy O’connors (Kurts mom) name

Tom Grant believes anyone who claims to have spotted Kurt after 7:30AM on April 4th is either lying or does not exist. Much of the information on these so-called witnesses has been deliberately planted in the media. (1, pg.5) (See Chapter 13 – Unknown Sources in this book for more about the planted stories)

Assuming Kurt is still alive and had scored the night before he likely shot heroin / slept most of this day, probably at the Western Evergreen or Crest Hotel.

Tom Grant:

I met with Courtney again at the Peninsula hotel. Courtney told me she had called in a missing person’s report pretending to be Kurt’s mother, Wendy O’Conner.

As we monitored the progress of the surveillance team in Seattle, we continued working with the credit card company trying to track the use of Kurt’s credit card. Someone was still attempting to use the card for various charges.

Possible Sightings

Katja and friend pick up Kurt from his place? – proved wrong (love & death)

Kurt spotted at Jack in the Box in Capitol Hill by fans, passes by (american spyfox)

Lindas Tavern – Victoria Renard B’Day

Later that night at 11.30pm Kurt was spotted for the very last time, at Linda’s Tavern. Victoria Renard, the last person to see Kurt, said that he didn’t seem upset; he just walked to the back. “He seemed neither here nor there,” (Renard, Victoria). No one ever saw him come out again. (55.55mins)

“I said ‘Hi, Kurt. Come for my party?’ and he just went ‘No’ and walked to the back of the bar. People say he went on the roof to ‘contemplate life’ but he didn’t. He just seemed utterly normal.”

Tom Grant believes Victoria Renard thinks she saw Kurt but he doesn’t believe it was actually him.

Why did Kurt go to the Tavern? Assuming he did. Was he looking to score again? Was Kurt looking for Caitlyn Moore? Perhaps she wasn’t home at 11pm. Surveillance started shortly after this.

Surveillance on Caitlyn Moore’s place starts 48Hrs before midnight on April 6th by P.I Ernie Barth – Love & Death (p.117)

Cali had left the house for the evening, and Jessica heard noises around midnight: ‘I heard footsteps upstairs and in the hall’, she recalled. ‘They were walking with a purpose, you know, not tip-toeing about, so I assumed it was Kurt.’ She called out ‘hello’, but got no answer.

Tom Grant thinks Jessica may have mistaken the large house boards creaking for footsteps. It also could have been Eric or Cali getting the gun to kill Kurt in the greenhouse.

Tuesday, April 5th. Kurt dies

2.50pm Tom Grant discovers someone is staying at the Western Evergreen under Bill Bailey, Kurts fav alias. He offers to check it out, Courtney says don’t bother. Later she calls and says it’s not him – Love & Death (p.115)

Tom Grant: I notified Courtney and she asked us to watch the hotel in case Kurt might leave. Courtney told us she didn’t want Kurt to know she was looking for him, but during an earlier phone conversation, Courtney told me Kurt was suicidal. “Everyone thinks he’s going to die,” she announced. So now I had to wonder why she wouldn’t want the police or someone else to go to the room and try to save him?

After less than an hour, Courtney called me and said she talked to the person in the room and it wasn’t Kurt. Of course I wondered why she’d call his room if she didn’t want him to know she was looking for him.

Did the killer follow Kurt from this location?

Tom Grant believes Kurt made his own way home and willingly shot heroin with someone(s). There were two needle marks found on Kurt’s dead body, one on each arm. Both were unhealed, recent injections. The amount of heroin in his system suggests at least one of the shots was black tar heroin, possibly given to him by Cali or Eric.

It’s possible Michael ‘Cali’ Dewitt murdered Kurt Cobain. Whether by supply of black tar heroin without disclosing its strength, the injection itself or the injection and gun shot. Another person may have been present and pulled the trigger, Tom Grant believes. This may have been Eric Erlandson.

Motif: If Kurt divorces Courtney it may affect her reputation and Hole’s record sales.

Eric said he flew to Seattle on Tuesday afternoon. He did an interview and was at the Peninsula Hotel in L.A on on Tuesday afternoon though. Tom Grant said he saw Eric at the hotel and believes Eric flew up Tuesday night and was back in L.A on Wednesday. This puts Eric Erlandson in Seattle around the time of death.

Courtney pretends she continued to phone home and her calls went unanswered.

Fake story by Courtney saying Cali didn’t tell her about seeing Kurt on April 2nd until April 5th and that’s why she asked Eric Erlandson to check the house on the 5th. Did he plant the rohypnol? Or move the gun perhaps..

Cali to Jennifer Adamson’s – phone records show (love & death)

Jennifer Adamson died a suspicious death in 2000? A few months after being interviewed by Charles Cross in 1999 for Heavier Than Heaven: The Biography of Kurt Cobain

Some sightings put Kurt on Capitol Hill, spending time with the woman friend who was also a heroin dealer. At least two people say she told them Cobain had come by her apartment Tuesday night, April 5. But the woman denies it, and the date conflicts with the medical examiner’s estimation that Cobain died sometime that day

The body was discovered on the 8th though, so there is a fair margin for error between whether he died late on the 4th or late on the 5th

Wednesday, April 6th. Tom Grant flies to Seattle

Courtney calls electrician company to install security alarm on greenhouse. Why install a security alarm on the greenhouse? Most likely she wanted them to discover Kurt’s body.

Kurt is dead, so Courtney allows Tom Grant to go to Seattle

Kurt had still not been located by Tom Grant. At the Peninsula Hotel later that afternoon, he volunteered to go to Seattle and search for Kurt.

Courtney agrees and was a lot calmer than normal (Spyfox and Tom Grant)

One of Courtney’s friends in the room said, “Why don’t you go up there, Courtney?”

“I can’t, I have business I have to take care of here,” Courtney replied. Rosemary Carroll denies Courtney had business in L.A at that time.

I asked Courtney not to tell anyone I was coming because they might alert Kurt. She agreed but later told me she had called Cali to tell him I was on my way to Seattle. Courtney told me earlier that she didn’t trust Cali. Now she claimed, “He won’t tell anyone.”

“Save the American Icon, Tom!” Courtney shouted dramatically as I left the hotel room and headed for the airport.

Jessica Hopper to Minneapolis, vomits in driveway – no food, drugs, situation?

11:30 PM. The Seattle Search


I picked up Kurt’s best friend, Dylan Carlson at his apartment. We went to a cafe where we ate and planned our strategy for locating Kurt and finding out what was going on.

I asked Dylan if he felt Kurt was suicidal. He replied, “No. Not at all. He’s under a lot of pressure, but he’s handling things pretty good.”

I asked Dylan if he’d ever been told that the Rome incident was a “suicide attempt,” and he said, “No. Kurt said it was just an accident.”

If Cobain was so “suicidal,” and if he had really “tried to kill himself” a month earlier, I wondered why nobody clued in his best friend, the guy he hangs out with! Wouldn’t they want Dylan to keep a close eye on Kurt? And if Kurt was so “suicidal,” wouldn’t Courtney want to make sure Dylan didn’t allow him to have access to guns?

Dylan told me Kurt had been afraid of intruders at the house lately, and that he wanted a gun for protection. So he said he helped Kurt buy a shotgun to have at the house when he returned from rehab. He said Kurt didn’t want the shotgun registered in his name because the police had just confiscated his other guns. He didn’t want them to know he had this one or they might confiscate it also.

After leaving the cafe, Dylan and I checked out a drug dealer’s apartment on Capitol Hill and several hotels on the Aurora strip where Kurt had been known to stay from time to time.

Caitlin Moore’s Apartment being staked. She later states, on tape to Dylan, that she hasn’t seen Kurt all week. Why a week?

I mentioned to Dylan that Courtney had told me Kurt only stays at the “best hotels.” Dylan appeared puzzled. “No, he doesn’t. He usually stays in some pretty ratty places.”

While Dylan and I were driving around Seattle, I asked him if we should check with Kurt’s mother in Aberdeen. Dylan replied, “No. Kurt wouldn’t go there. He doesn’t get along with his mom.”

Tom Grant and Dylan see PI Ernie Barth outside Caitlins apartment between midnight and 2am and he hasn’t seen Kurt in the last 48hrs

Thursday Morning, April 7th @ 2:15 am. Dylan and Tom Grant search house

We went to the Lake Washington house. I waited in the car while Dylan walked up alone as we had previously planned. We didn’t want to alert Kurt to my presence if at all possible. Dylan came back to the car after at least five minutes saying no one was home. I wondered what took so long if no one was home? Did Dylan plant the note? Or see the body?

—> We went to a pay phone and called Courtney. She was at Rosemary Carroll’s house in Los Angeles. Dylan talked with Courtney. I told him to have her call the alarm company and ask them to turn off the alarm so we could go in the house.

Rosemary Carroll overhears Courtney saying “Make sure you check the green house”

Upon returning to the Lake Washington house, we gained access through an unlocked kitchen window. While we were searching the house, Dylan commented, “I’ve never seen the house this clean before.” A television was still on in one of the bedrooms upstairs and the bed was unmade. Dylan told me this was Cali’s room. If it was Cali’s room.. why would Jessica Hopper have heard footsteps upstairs? Was she upstairs or sleeping downstairs?

Dylan “House is so clean” with Tom Grant – who cleaned?

Rohypnol found under mattress, they remove it. Planted by Eric?

Rohypnol was found in Kurts root beer at death

Tom Grant: We didn’t find Kurt. Dylan didn’t tell me about the room above the garage, and since it was dark and raining, I hadn’t noticed it. I dropped Dylan off at his apartment and went to my hotel for a few hours sleep.

Was Dylan afraid to discover Kurt? To see his friends head blown off?

Thursday Daytime April 7th.

Courtney sends Cali to L.A and gives him $35,000 for rehab then right after that: Courtney calls the alarm company Veca electric (spyfox) to put a motion detector on the greenhouse the following day.

4pm: Cali to airport from Kurt’s House – left fake note? Then to LA – confirmed in love and death by Cali, Seattle police and Graytop Taxis. Driver described Cali to police. Police doc obtained by Max & Ian

Tom Grant: I picked Dylan up later and we resumed our search. We spent most of the day on Thursday checking out some of Kurt’s hangouts and talking to people who might know where he was. As evening approached, we headed for the small town of Carnation located about 30 miles east of Seattle where the Cobains owned two vacant cabins situated on several acres of property. But in the dark, Dylan became unsure as to whether or not he could locate the property. The increasing rain didn’t help much so we eventually turned back. We’d try another time.

We stopped at a pay phone and Dylan made a call. When he returned to the car, he said, “Courtney’s had some trouble. She got arrested and she’s in the hospital.”

Dylan eventually managed to speak with Courtney on the phone to get further instructions. Courtney wanted us to go back to the Lake Washington house to look for the shotgun. She said it could be in a hidden compartment in her closet.

Since Cali had been at the house quite a lot, I wondered why she hadn’t asked him to look there before now?

Courtney at Rosemary Carol’s speaks to Dylan on the phone and she hears her say “Make sure you check the greenhouse” (spyfox says 6th and 7th Courtney was there)

Backpack left with handwriting sketches at Rosemary Carol’s

According to the police report, Cali was transported by taxi from the Cobain home to the airport on Thursday, April 7th, whereas Jessica had left for Minneapolis on Wednesday, April 6th. According to Charles Cross, by all accounts, she was present when Erlandson arrived at the estate the day before.

The most interesting part of the story is that both departures were precipitated and Hopper claimed she was very distressed, vomiting in the driveway while departing the estate: ‘I was sick for two days when I got back because I was such a mess.’ What could have make her so sick? Was she on drugs? Did she see something? She never said anything more than this but it is extremely strange and very convenient that they both left just before the body was discovered. She was probably one of the last persons to speak to Kurt before he died, however the police has never interviewed her?

Very recently she was asked about the events of April 1994 by a journalist during her book tour in Dublin, and you can listen to her distraught answer here… or rather lack of answer. Hopper became very upset, she broke down, cried and avoided the question. Why is she still so upset about something which happened 20 years ago and why can’t she even talk about it? What were these footsteps she heard upstairs? Even Courtney Love is not crying when she talks about her husband’s death…

A few weeks later, Tom Grant says Courtney told him that she gave Cali $30,000 to go to a rehab somewhere back east, and that she was angry because he took his girlfriend with him.

9:45 PM.

Dylan and I returned to the Lake Washington house. Inside I found a note from “Cali” which had been placed on the main stairway. It wasn’t there the night before. The note read in part, “I can’t believe you managed to be in the house without me noticing. You’re a f—ing a–hole for not calling Courtney…”

I had a feeling the note was intended for me to find, not Kurt. It just seemed phony. When I mentioned this note later to Rosemary Carroll (a person who knew Kurt, Courtney and Cali very well), she agreed, “Didn’t it Tom? Didn’t it sound phony?!”

Audio conversation between Tom Grant and Rosemary Carroll:

On Thursday afternoon, April 7th, Cali told friends he was leaving for Los Angeles. Although I spoke with him later, I never got to see or talk to Cali while I was in Seattle looking for Kurt. I had the feeling he was trying to avoid me.

Cali later claimed he was hardly at the house from Monday on. He said he wasn’t staying at the house because Courtney kept calling and saying she knew Kurt was there.

The obvious question: if Cali was hardly at the house himself, why would he find it so hard to believe Kurt had been in the house without him noticing? And if Courtney told Cali she knew Kurt was there, why wasn’t she having us watch the house during our surveillance?

Friday morning, April 8th. Kurt is Found

Dylan and I were on our way to the Carnation property once again. We stopped for gas and Dylan got out to make a phone call. When he came back to the car, Dylan said a friend just told him a body was found at the Lake Washington house. Was it Cali, Kurt or someone else? We turned on the car radio and soon heard that the person found dead was Kurt Cobain. Dylan showed no reaction.

Later we heard on the radio that Kurt’s body was found in the “greenhouse.” I turned to Dylan and asked, “What’s the greenhouse?” Dylan told me it was a room above the garage.

“Why didn’t we look there?” I asked.

“It’s just a dirty little room. I think they keep some lumber in there or something,” Dylan replied.

But Carlson said he didn’t know about the room. “For all the times I’d been there, I didn’t even realize there was a room above it associated with the house,” he said

I called my office and spoke with Ben Klugman. He told me the credit card company indicated someone had continued trying to use Kurt’s credit card as recent as Friday morning, April 8th, just hours before Cobain’s body was found. Cali?

A bank report from his credit card stated that Kurt Cobain still made deposit transactions on the football gambling agent’s website twice on April 6, even though in fact Kurt Cobain had died since April 5.

Courtney, Rosemary, Frances, Jackie Farry and Eric Erlandson fly privately to Seattle (love & death)


We soon learned Cobain had been dead for two days or more. Now it was apparent that someone had been trying to use his missing credit card since the time he left Los Angeles to return to Seattle. Someone also attempted to use that same card after Cobain died!

I called the Seattle homicide detectives and tried to tell them something was wrong. The detective told me Kurt was locked in the room by himself. He said the door was locked from the inside and the fire department had to break a window on the door to get in, inferring that Cobain had to have been alone in the greenhouse when he died. I assumed they must know what they’re talking about, but I was curious about what kind of door lock this was.

I spoke to Courtney on the phone that afternoon. She wasn’t at all upset that we hadn’t found Kurt. She acted as if she thought Kurt died the night before. If so, we could have saved him if we’d found him in time! Why wasn’t she angry at us?

Courtney tried to get me to talk to the press. I told her I didn’t want to say anything until I found out more about what happened. This whole thing smelled really rotten!

I left Seattle and flew back to Los Angeles.

A note found in the wallet of Nirvana star Kurt Cobain after his tragic suicide that mocks his marriage vows to Courtney Love has been released for the first time since his death in 1994.

The brief handwritten note, which carries no date, is a scathing parody of the traditional Christian wedding oath starting with the words, ‘Do you Kurt Cobain take Courtney Michelle Love to be your lawful shredded wife.’

It goes on to say, ‘even when she’s a b**** with zits and siphoning all (your) money for doping and whoring’.

Adding to the scuzzy appeal of the note, it is written on paper from the Phoenix Hotel in San Francisco’s gritty, crime-infested Tenderloin district.

Wednesday, April 13th. Tom Grant returns to Seattle

I met with Courtney’s entertainment attorney, Rosemary Carroll, at her Hollywood office. She indicated that she was suspicious about Courtney’s involvement in Kurt’s death.

“He wasn’t suicidal, Tom. Kurt wasn’t suicidal!” Rosemary blurted with a deep sigh.

Rosemary told me that Courtney had called her “a couple of weeks ago” and asked her to find “the meanest, most vicious divorce lawyer” she could find. Courtney also asked Rosemary if the prenuptial agreement could be voided.

Rosemary then told me that Kurt had also called during that same time period. According to Rosemary, Kurt hadn’t completed his will yet. He told Rosemary he wanted Courtney taken out of it.

Rosemary indicated she was disturbed and somewhat suspicious that Courtney wouldn’t let her or anyone else see the so-called “suicide note.” I mentioned to Rosemary that Courtney said she couldn’t go to Seattle herself because she “had business in L.A.”

“She didn’t have any business in L.A.!” Rosemary snapped.

During our meeting, Rosemary also told me that on Thursday morning, while Courtney was at her house talking to Dylan Carlson on the phone, she overheard Courtney say, “Be sure and check the greenhouse.”

Since Courtney directed Dylan to check the greenhouse, I couldn’t help but wonder why she hadn’t asked Cali to check the greenhouse in the past few days.

We now know that after talking to Dylan on the phone Thursday morning, Courtney left Rosemary Carroll’s house and went back to the Peninsula Hotel. A short while later, she called 911. First reports have Courtney overdosing again. She was later arrested. Rosemary has since shown me evidence that Courtney’s “arrest” may have been a deliberately planned event.

As Rosemary and I concluded our meeting, we both agreed it would be best for me to return to Seattle to further investigate Cobain’s death. Rosemary, however, was adamant that Courtney should not be told of the private discussions we were having regarding the suspicious circumstances and events surrounding Kurt’s so-called “suicide.”

6:30 PM

I flew back to Seattle and checked into a hotel. The next day I went to the Lake Washington house. A security guard at the house let me in and I found Courtney sitting at the dining room table. As I approached and sat down to talk, she said, “I guess I really found the right P.I. this time.” The flattery was nice, but it didn’t make much sense.

After a short conversation, Courtney got up to get a cigarette and a lady walked over to where I was sitting. She was wearing a black T-shirt that read, “Grunge Is Dead.” I assumed she was a relative of Kurt’s, maybe a sister or cousin. She stood in front of me and asked, “You’re the investigator?” I nodded while she continued, “What do you think?”

Not knowing who she was, I replied, “I don’t know. What do you think?”

She answered by introducing herself. “Well, I’m Kurt’s mom, Wendy. I don’t know. Something doesn’t seem right. Why didn’t Dylan look in the greenhouse?”

I noticed Courtney looking over her shoulder as Wendy and I talked. She seemed to be concerned about our conversation. I told Wendy I’d like to talk to her at length some time in the next few days. She agreed and said she’d like to talk to me too. As Courtney walked back towards us Wendy began walking away. Courtney put her arms around Wendy and kissed her. I noticed Courtney whispering something in Wendy’s ear. The rest of the time I was at the house, Wendy seemed cool towards me, almost evasive.

I had to see the “Note”

Courtney took me upstairs where we sat on her bed and talked. Since she hadn’t even let her close friend Rosemary Carroll see the so-called “suicide note,” I had to come up with a way to get a copy for myself in order to examine it in detail.

“I heard you read the note on TV the other day,” I commented. “I was confused about something. It sounded like the note said, ‘I’m lying here on the bed. . .’ If Kurt was lying on the bed when he wrote the note, why was the bed was so neat when I came in here the other night? It didn’t look like anyone had been on this bed.”

“No, Tom, I was lying on the bed,” Courtney answered and repeated, “I was lying on the bed recording the message to Kurt’s fans.”

“Are you sure that’s what you said? ” I asked. “I got the impression it was Kurt saying he was lying on the bed.”

“No. Here, I’ll show you,” she said, and reached over to retrieve a folded paper from under a pillow. Handing me the note, Courtney pointed out, “It’s only a copy. The police have the original.”

I studied the note as if looking for the phrase in question, then commented, “I can’t read this without my glasses. Can I go downstairs and make a copy on your fax machine? I’ll look at it later.”

“Yeah…sure,” Courtney mumbled as her eyes dropped out of an icy stare. When I came back up, Courtney was kneeling on the floor looking in a phone book. A telephone was on the floor next to her. “Would you wait downstairs, Tom?” she growled. A few minutes earlier she was friendly–now she was obviously irritated!

Our Trip to Carnation

Later that day we made plans to go to the Carnation property. Courtney told me Eric Erlandson, (guitarist in Courtney’s band “Hole”), was going with us. A short time later Courtney took Eric into another room to talk. When they came out, Eric left the house alone in his van.

“I thought Eric was going with us?” I asked.

“He’ll meet us there,” Courtney replied.

We left the house followed by a couple of television news vans which had been staked out at the Cobain residence. Losing the vans after a few blocks, I drove Courtney to the Carnation property with Kat Bjelland, (a long-time friend of Courtney’s and guitarist for Babes In Toyland), in the back seat of my rental car.

As we drove, Courtney began talking about the “son of a bitch” who gave the story to the Associated Press saying she had overdosed on April 2nd. She appeared agitated as she grumbled, “I’m going to find out who the hell it was and sue that mother f…er for libel. I can prove I was at the hotel. People saw me there. It was a total lie.”

“You told me you planted that story,” I reminded Courtney.

“Huh?…Oh” she responded, and turned to look out the window.

During the drive Courtney wanted to stop twice for snacks. We also missed the turn off when Courtney couldn’t remember which road to take. Temporarily lost, we stopped to solicit directions from a nearby farmer. I learned later that one of the houses on the property had just been built. Courtney must have been out there several times while the house was under construction. Certainly she knew how to get there. It actually seemed she was deliberately delaying our arrival for some reason.

Arriving at the Carnation property, I noticed the two houses on the property reflected what I’d already come to know about Kurt and Courtney’s individual personalities. One was an old weathered cabin full of well used furniture and bedding. It looked like the home of a person living in poverty! This is where Kurt apparently felt the most comfortable.

The other house is a brand new wood sided mansion, vacant and yet to be furnished. This house was an “exhibition” of success and wealth.

The two houses are separated by a pond with a newly constructed walking bridge connecting the old to the new.

We went into the old cabin first. Courtney and Kat went upstairs to the loft while I stayed downstairs to look around. I noticed a jacket and other clothing spread around the living room and on the floor near the coffee table was a large box containing nothing but Rolling Stone magazines, about thirty or so.

Courtney tried to convince me Kurt had been to the Carnation property after he returned to Seattle from the rehab in Los Angeles. But as I looked around the old cabin, I noticed everything was covered with a very thin layer of moss due to the humid weather in Carnation. The presence of the moss indicated no one had disturbed anything in this cabin for quite some time.

When Courtney and Kat came back downstairs, Courtney reached into her coat pocket and pulled out a cloth pouch. “Look Tom. Kurt was here,” she said, as she opened the pouch revealing a syringe inside.

Why would he have left a syringe here? I thought to myself. And what about the moss all over everything? I was having a hard time believing Kurt had been here.

As we continued looking around the old cabin, Kat suddenly screamed. Courtney and I ran to find her in the bathroom looking into the toilet. There were five dead rats inside! It looked like they’d been there for quite some time.

Now it was obvious no one had used this cabin recently! I suspected Courtney brought the pouch containing the syringe with her.

In the new house we found a sleeping bag, some cigarette butts, and soda cans scattered about. Courtney asked me to gather these items up to take back with us. She said she wanted to get them fingerprinted.

Eric didn’t show up at the Carnation property while we were there. Had he come and gone before we arrived?

We left the Carnation property and headed back to the Lake Washington house. During the drive back Courtney told Kat and I that she was going to make a rubber hand from a cast she’d made of Kurt’s hand. She said she was going to use it to slap people in the face and say, “There! That’s from Kurt!”

I mentioned I’d worked with hand casts and told her fingerprints could even be duplicated using a silicon material to fill the mold. Courtney appeared somewhat discouraged, as if something just went wrong. I never heard any more about printing the items found at the Carnation property.

Had this been part of a plan to convince me and others that Kurt had been to the Carnation property after leaving the rehab in Los Angeles? Did Courtney accidentally reveal her scheme by saying too much?

At one point Courtney talked to narcotics Detective Antonio Terry on my car phone. I later learned she’d been talking to Terry quite a lot during the time Kurt was missing. Detective Terry was even mentioned in the missing person’s report as having additional information about Kurt.

Remember Detective Terry’s name–it will come up again later.

Conversations during the drive indicated Courtney was still thinking more about her herself than about Kurt. She seemed to be obsessed with her career.

While Courtney was out of the car at one time, I heard radio commentator, Paul Harvey, talk about a rumored suicide pact which supposedly existed between Courtney and Kurt. This was typical of the type of planted stories I’d heard Courtney originate on her own and then blame others for leaking to the press.

I wondered if there was a connection between Courtney’s fake “overdose” Saturday night and her possible deliberate overdose and arrest Thursday morning. Had she expected Kurt to die Saturday night? Had she expected us to find his body Thursday morning? Had she tried to make this look like a suicide pact?

Obstructing The Investigation.

Back at the house, I told Courtney I’d like to talk to Cali and Dylan together. Courtney replied, “Cali went to rehab in El Paso, or Georgia… no, he’s in L.A. with friends.” Then she shouted to Eric, “Call Cali and tell him to get back up here on the next plane.”

Dylan arrived at the house while I was in the kitchen. When I came out and started looking for him, I was told he was upstairs talking to Courtney in her bedroom. They came downstairs together after about twenty minutes. It was obvious Dylan had just gotten a heroin fix.

I took Dylan into the kitchen to talk. As I began questioning him, I noticed his response was canned as if he’d just been prepared and rehearsed. Dylan kept nodding off from the heroin. There was no sense in continuing.

I left the house and asked Eric to call my hotel when Cali got there. After several hours, I called and spoke to Eric. He told me that after I left, Courtney had him call Cali and tell him he didn’t have to come to Seattle. Eric said, “I don’t know what’s going on here!”

Saturday, April 16th.

Ben Klugman had flown to Seattle the day before to work with me. Ben and I went back to the Lake Washington house to talk to Courtney. The lady who answered the door told us Courtney was upstairs sleeping. I asked her if Wendy was there. She said Wendy was downstairs. I asked the lady to let Wendy know I was there and to ask her if we could talk.

The lady left but returned a minute or two later. “Wendy says she has nothing to talk to you about,” she said.

We left the house and after following up on some other leads, Ben and I returned to our hotel. The electrical supervisor who had been at the scene of Kurt’s death met with Ben and I later in my hotel room. He described the position of the body and the shotgun. He also told us, “Kurt’s hair looked like it had been combed by a hairdresser. It was all spread out nice and even.”

I realized this could just be one man’s perception of what he thought he saw while under stress, but I wanted to see the police photographs to see what he was talking about.

We later learned Courtney called the electrical contractors on Wednesday, April 6th, before I had agreed to fly to Seattle, and instructed them to begin work on the lights and motion detector on the greenhouse! Did she know Kurt was inside? Was she trying to get the body discovered? It just all seemed a little strange!

Document Exam – Not Credible

I had faxed off several documents, including a copy of the “suicide note,” to two separate document examiners in Los Angeles. The document examiners later told me, based on the photocopies they had examined, it was their opinion Courtney wrote the letter left on the stairs, not Cali.

This explanation wasn’t logical. Courtney was still in Beverly Hills when this note showed up on the stairs. Why would Courtney write a note and make it look like Cali had written it? Why not just tell Cali what to write?

If the document examiners were right, something very unusual was going on here. Still, I found their conclusions hard to believe.

My Meeting with the Police

April 15th.

One week after Cobain’s body was found, I went to the Seattle police station and met with Sgt. Cameron, the lead homicide investigator assigned to the Cobain case.

Items discussed with Sgt. Cameron included:

Numerous inconsistencies and contradictions in logic…

The missing credit card and continued activity on the card after Kurt’s death…

The fact that Courtney specifically told Dylan to check the greenhouse and yet he didn’t even tell me about the greenhouse…

The letter on the stairs from Cali seemed phony and didn’t make sense…

Document examiners said Courtney wrote the letter on the stairs…

Doubts about Kurt’s handwriting on the so-called “suicide note,” especially the bottom portion…

The electrician’s statement about Kurt’s hair appearing to have been combed…

Courtney’s motives for possible involvement in Cobain’s death?…

She’d get more money from a suicide than from a divorce. With a suicide, Courtney would inherit and control the entire Cobain and Nirvana estate. If Kurt divorced her, she’d have to settle for half, at best, of Kurt’s assets…

Kurt’s record sales would increase, leaving Courtney with even more income…

And finally, based on what I’d learned about her personality, Kurt’s death and the publicity it generated would help Courtney launch her own career.

I asked Sgt. Cameron why he told me the door was locked from the inside, pointing out that the lock was a simple push-in and twist type. “Anyone could have pulled that door shut after locking it!” I added.

“There was a stool wedged up against the door,” Sgt. Cameron replied, with a touch of resentment in his voice.

Once again I assumed the police had evidence that Kurt was alone when the shotgun was discharged, but I still had some real problems with this case!

When I asked Sgt. Cameron if I could look at the photographs to see why the electrical supervisor thought Kurt’s hair had been combed, he responded, “We haven’t developed the photographs and probably never will. We don’t develop photographs on suicides.”

“Nothing you’ve said convinces me this is anything but a suicide,” Sgt. Cameron informed me as we concluded the meeting.

Continuing The Investigation

I spent the next few weeks trying to determine if my document examiners were correct. Through my own testing I was eventually convinced they were wrong. I concluded Cali did write the letter I found on the stairs at the Lake Washington house. It was not written by Courtney.

One of the document examiners finally admitted her mistake. The other remained firm in her original opinion. I don’t believe in the accuracy of the work done by these two document examiners. We want to get to the truth here. I’m not interested in false hype over unreliable evidence.

I called Detective Kirkland and told him the document examiners had made a mistake. He didn’t understand the significance in the first place, so it was obvious they had paid little attention to anything I had to say about this case.

I studied media material and found it was full of planted stories and misinformation. One story had Courtney grieving at home, while she was actually calling me from Canyon Ranch in Arizona and bragging to me that she was sleeping with Billy Corgan. This was only three weeks after Kurt died!

Courtney Love On Notice

May 18th, 1994.

I sent Courtney a letter indicating my suspicions about Kurt’s death.

Dear Courtney,

I’m sure you know by now that my investigation has been somewhat more active than you might have been aware of. The purpose of this letter is to clarify my position regarding our working relationship.

You may recall our trip to Carnation on Thursday, April 14th. I mentioned during the drive that I was beginning to turn over some “rocks” that I wasn’t sure you’d want turned over. I asked you if you wanted me to continue digging. Kat, who was in the back seat, said, “Oh yeah, she wants to know everything.” You responded, “Yeah Tom, do what ever it takes. I want to know everything that happened.” Your instructions were clear, so in the days and weeks that followed, I proceeded to “do whatever it takes.”

As the investigation continued, my attempts to get at the truth often seemed to be deliberately hindered. While reading some of the articles being written in newspapers and magazines, I discovered the information being released to the press was inaccurate and often cleverly misleading.

I consider the circumstances surrounding your husband’s death to be highly suspicious. My investigation has exposed a number of inconsistencies in the facts of this case as well as many contradictions in sound logic and common sense. I’m required to report findings such as these to the police, so on Friday, April 15th, I spoke with Sgt. Cameron about some of what I’ve learned so far.

As I’ve experienced in past cases, police detectives don’t often welcome the work of outside investigators. I’ve learned it’s somewhat idealistic and naive to think the truth might be more important than professional pride.

I’ve decided to continue working on this case until I see it to its conclusion, without additional charge. Attached you will find an invoice which accounts for the charges billed for our services, including time and expenses. As you can see, prior to my return to Seattle on April 13th, these charges exceeded the retainer amount. However, please consider your bill paid in full. There will be no further charges.

As I pursue the truth regarding the events surrounding your husband’s death, your cooperation and assistance will be appreciated, but not required.


Tom Grant


courtney at canyon ranch with corgan:

Maintaining The Lines of Communication.

I anticipated an angry reply from Courtney. Instead, she responded by retaining me to do more work for her! This additional work was unrelated to the investigation into Kurt’s death, but it was always time consuming and obviously an attempt to keep me on the payroll. Whenever I started talking to people close to Courtney about Kurt’s death, she’d hire me to do another job. Courtney had assumed I’d keep quiet as long as the money kept coming in. This became even more obvious as work was completed and she didn’t seem to care about the results.

During conversations with Courtney over the next several months, she verbally encouraged me to continue investigating Kurt’s death, but often sabotaged my efforts to obtain information.

I took advantage of her somewhat foolish strategy. Courtney wanted me under her wing and in a position where she could keep tabs on what I was doing. That worked for me. It allowed me to stay informed about what she was doing too! Ethically, I had no problem with the arrangement since I’d given her written notice about my suspicions.

Actually, unless she was innocent of any wrong doing in Cobain’s death, she really had very few options at this point. Getting angry would just create more suspicion. Cutting off contact would keep her in the dark about what I was doing.

Courtney often told me she thought Kurt was with “Katlin” before he died. Katlin was a drug dealer living in Seattle’s Capitol Hill area. Since we had someone watching Katlin’s apartment and video taping nearly everyone coming and going, it seemed odd that Courtney had not asked for the surveillance tapes.

At a meeting later in my office in Beverly Hills, Cali told us he checked the greenhouse on Sunday but never looked after that. He said, “It’s just a dirty gross little room.” The greenhouse is a rather large, clean room. It measures 19′ x 23′!

In the May 11th issue of the Seattle Times, Dylan told a Times reporter he didn’t know the greenhouse was there. “For all the times I’d been there, I didn’t even realize there was a room above it associated with the house.” This contradicted the conversation I had with Dylan in the car on the day Kurt was found.

Several weeks later, Courtney told me she gave Cali $30,000 to go to a rehab somewhere back east. She was angry because he took his girlfriend with him. I couldn’t help but wonder if this was actually an excuse for a payoff.

Police Reports Bring Startling Revelations

I finally received copies of the police reports. The reports indicated the credit card used by Cobain to purchase the tickets for his flight from Los Angeles to Seattle – the credit card Courtney had canceled but someone was still attempting to use – was not found in his wallet or other property. Kurt had two other Versateller cards in his wallet, along with $120 in cash which was on the floor, and $63 in cash, which was found in Kurt’s coat pocket.

Studying the reports further, I discovered misleading information had been given to the police, to me, and to the press.

The Missing Persons report filed by Courtney Love while pretending to be Wendy O’Conner, reads, “Mr. Cobain ran away from California facility and flew back to Seattle. He also bought a shotgun and may be suicidal.”

The wording of this report made it sound like he purchased the shotgun AFTER he left the rehab in L.A. The report also failed to mention Kurt was last seen at the Lake Washington house after he left the rehab!

According to the police reports:

The stool Sgt. Cameron said was wedged against the entrance doors, was actually just sitting in front of the unlocked balcony doors on the other side of the room. These doors did not allow access since there’s no stairway to that balcony.

As mentioned earlier, the entrance door to the greenhouse had a push and twist lock. Anyone could have locked it and pulled it shut as they left, so Kurt was NOT barricaded in the room as the police had indicated to me and as the media had reported.

Kurt’s driver’s license had been removed and placed in front of his wallet for a photograph BY AN OFFICER on the scene. Kurt DID NOT leave his license out so his body could be identified as falsely reported in the media.

The first officers on the scene had taken 23 Polaroids. The police DID have photographs they could have shown me!

The canceled credit card was not in Kurt’s possession.

There was no attempt in these reports to explain the missing credit card… and yet the case was now closed!

No Legible Prints on the Shotgun!

The police reports also indicated the shotgun had been sent to the crime lab to be checked for fingerprints. The Fingerprint Analysis Report for the shotgun reads: ” The above item was processed for prints on 05/06/94 by Sr. ID Technician T. Geranimo, #4466. Four cards of latent prints were lifted. The four cards of lifted latent prints contain no legible prints.”

So the shotgun wasn’t even checked for prints until nearly one month after Cobain’s body was found!

I have to wonder how Kurt could have handled this shotgun before he left for rehab and after he returned to the house without ever leaving any legible finger prints.

More Deaths – More Murders?

June 4, 1994.

Narcotics Detective Antonio Terry was murdered. He’s the first Seattle police officer to be murdered in the line of duty in nine years. I’ve read the news reports and although it is quite a coincidence, it doesn’t appear Detective Terry’s murder is connected to the Cobain case. But, I’d like to know more! (Tom Grant)

Courtney was an informant for Terry who told her heroin was coming from Oregon.

Terry was shot by two men, Eric Smiley and Quentin Ervin who were charged. He was flagged down on his usual way home as he turned onto an exit ramp

He was the first cop to be killed in Washington state since 1987.

His time sheet was also altered by 30 mins to make it look as though he was still on duty so the charges would be more severe.

Sergeant Donald Cameron was in charge of the case and no officer was held responsible for the time sheet amendment (love and death p.245)

June 16, 1994.

Kristen Pfaff, the bass player for Courtney’s band Hole, died of an alleged drug overdose. Her body was found in the bathtub inside the bathroom of her Seattle apartment.

I’m very suspicious of the circumstances of Kristen’s death. We know Kurt was leaving Seattle and Courtney when he ended up dead. Kristen was also leaving Seattle and Courtney when she ended up dead. She had a U-Haul trailer all packed and loaded. She was leaving the next morning, going back to Minneapolis.

During a media interview Courtney said she had to drag Eric away from Kristen’s body. So we know Courtney was in Seattle at the time of Kristen’s death. Was Kristen’s death just a coincidence?… or was it murder?

“Copy-cat Suicides”

Reports of so-called copycat suicides continue to surface. Many of Kurt’s fans are having difficulty dealing with his alleged “suicide” and feel if he thought suicide was the answer for his problems, then they’d solve their problems the same way.

I’m appalled that no one in the Cobain camp is speaking out about this, trying to put a stop to these senseless deaths.

Another Coincidence?

June 17, 1994.

The original so-called “suicide” note from Kurt’s death was returned to Courtney. The police also returned the note from Rome at this time. Courtney had given the Rome note to the police for handwriting comparison. I find it interesting that the police would return some of the last pieces of physical evidence relating to Cobain’s death to Courtney, immediately after Kristen Pfaff was found dead!

Gag Orders

As my investigation continued from Beverly Hills, I tried to get Cali back in for additional questioning. He was living in Los Angeles at the time, so it would have been convenient for him to come to my office.

Every time I started to focus on Cali, Courtney would give me another time consuming job unrelated to this case.

Courtney eventually tried to get me to sign a confidentiality agreement. I told her to send me a copy and I’d look at it. But, I added, “I’m not going to sign anything that could interfere with my investigation.”

Courtney also said she wanted to get Cali and another friend of hers by the name of Renee Naverette, to sign a confidentiality agreement. She said, “Everyone who works for me has to sign it.”

Why now? I wondered. She’s known Cali for years!

December 15, 1994: The Rolling Stone Interview

This issue of Rolling Stone featured an interview with Courtney Love by David Fricke. This was one of the most interesting interviews I’ve read so far. It describes Courtney’s mind-set and reveals what I consider to be a psychopathic personality.

Throughout this interview, Courtney seems preoccupied with convincing everyone how suicidal Kurt was. She tells a story about Kurt bringing a gun to the hospital room when Frances was born and she heroically grabbed the gun from him and said, “I’ll go first, I can’t have you do it first. I’ll go first.”

This whole story is difficult to believe. I find it interesting that Courtney was so absorbed in promoting the image of Kurt’s suicidal tendencies right after his beautiful daughter was born, that she showed no concern at all for the fact that Frances would grow up hearing this horror story once it got published. It certainly wouldn’t be the best thing for her self-esteem.

So, now we learn…

there was another Note!

Questions about Kurt’s so-called “suicide note” were also raised by David Fricke during the Rolling Stone interview with Courtney. Feeling pressured to explain why the note was so confusing and not really suicidal, Courtney finally admitted Kurt also left her another note!

Oh really!!

During a taped telephone conversation between her and I on January 19, 1995, I asked Courtney about this “other” note. She claimed she found it on her bed under a pillow. I know this is not true because Thursday morning, well after the time of Kurt’s death, I looked under the pillows. I also looked under the bed and between the mattresses. That’s where I found a package of the drug Rohypnol that I later told Courtney about. Dylan and I were looking everywhere for drugs and drug paraphernalia that might indicate whether or not Kurt had been in the house recently.

I asked her why she didn’t tell me about the “other” note when she found it, or even some time later. After all, she had indicated she wanted me to investigate her husband’s death. I couldn’t understand why she’d withhold such a vital piece of evidence! Courtney said she didn’t think it was necessary.

“I told Sgt. Cameron about it,” she told me. “And I told Rosemary about it.” Another obvious lie!

If the police knew right away about this “other” note, it would have been listed as evidence and mentioned in the police reports. If Rosemary Carroll would have known about it during the first few months after Cobain’s death, she certainly would have told me. She had put her career and relationship with Courtney at risk to provide me with evidence, including Courtney’s phone records from the Peninsula Hotel. She was working closely with me to find out what happened. Rosemary was telling me everything else. There’s no way she would have kept details of this “second note” from me!

Even more important however, is what the second note says. Courtney admitted to me it wasn’t suicidal. She quoted some lines to Rolling Stone, “You know I love you, I love Frances, I’m so sorry. Please don’t follow me… I’ll be there, I’ll protect you. I don’t know where I’m going, I just can’t be here anymore.”

So the reason why Courtney initially kept the second note secret from everyone is obvious: the second note clarifies that the first note (found by police at the scene) was simply Kurt’s retirement letter written to his fans. Kurt was quitting the music business, he was leaving Courtney and he was leaving Seattle. That’s all he was doing… and Courtney knew it!

There was no actual “suicide” note. In fact, several handwritting experts who have examined the the alleged “suicide” note, have concluded the words at the bottom, “which will be so much happier without me,” appear to have been added to the note by another hand.

My own tests with that so-called “suicide” note indicated that when it is enlarged on a copy machine, the inconsitencies become even more clear. The ink printed line of that one critical comment, (“which will be so much happier without me”), are thinner than all of the ink printed lines in the rest of the note. At the very least, this indicates that line was added after the rest of the note was completed. The pressure from the hand using the pen to add that line was not consistent with the pressure from the hand that wrote the body of the note.

What About The Note From The Rome Incident?

During the taped conversation I had with her on January 19, 1995, Courtney told me the Rome note mostly just “trashes” her. But, she claimed, “It says one thing very definitely suicidal.” Then Courtney quotes a line from the note written to her by Kurt in Rome.

“Dr. Baker says I would have to choose between life and death. I’m choosing death.”

If this statement really is in the Rome note, what does it mean? To think that the doctor was telling Kurt that suicide was some kind of an option is absurd! I’ve never known a doctor to recommend suicide as a cure for drug addiction. Have you? I think it’s obvious to any person with the least bit of common sense, this Doctor was simply telling Kurt that if he doesn’t get off drugs, he’d eventually die from using them.

Unfortunately, Kurt was severely addicted to heroin. I believe Kurt’s response meant that he was going to do what he wanted, even if he might eventually die from his drug addiction. Heroin withdrawal involves physical pain and torment. This would be a typical response from a severe heroin addict who was afraid or wasn’t ready to kick an overwhelming heroin addiction.

A self-destructive comment? Yes. But, suicidal? No. Ask any therapist. There’s a huge difference between the two.

A simple statement from Kurt that he would make his own choices in life, even if it meant the use of heroin might eventually kill him, got twisted by Courtney into something she thought she could use to convince everyone, “He wanted to kill himself.”

Keep in mind, the incident in Rome was never called a suicide attempt, by anyone, until AFTER Kurt died in Seattle.

The doctor in Rome even said he believed the overdose was an accident. Dr. Galleta says, “The last image I have of him, which in light of the tragedy now seems pathetic, is of a young man playing with the little girl. He did not seem like a young man who wanted to end it all.”

In a recently released book “COBAIN” by the editors of Rolling Stone, Neil Strauss writes regarding the Rome event, “Gold Mountain, [Nirvana’s management company], still denies that a suicide attempt was made. A note was found, says a company spokesman, but Kurt insisted it wasn’t a suicide note. He just took all of his and Courtney’s money and was going to run away and disappear.”

Was it or wasn’t it? Well, Kurt Cobain,the person who wrote the note, insisted it was NOT a suicide note.

What more do we need here?!

Now if Kurt was lying, Courtney could simply release the note from Rome to the public. That would prove she was telling the truth! It would prove Kurt DID try to commit suicide in Rome.

But there’s a little problem here. On January 19, 1995, during a tape recorded telephone conversation, Courtney told me that when the police returned the note from Rome to her, Sgt. Cameron said, “This will never do you any good. I’d get rid of this if I were you.”

“So,” Courtney says. . . “I burned it!”

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